I wrote this poem as the 4th anniversary of Summers death loomed large. September once again decided to make it's appearance. All the sights and sounds of the month bring back the floodgates of memories and now triggers of the last days of Summers life. I begin to relive them in my mind as I mentally prepare to honor Summer and her life while the sting of her death consumes me once again. To forget is impossible ... so don't ask me to! To remember is painful ... there is nothing you can say or do! Just let me have my moments when I need to shed some tears Don't tell me I don't trust God enough to wipe away my fears. I have to take each day that comes and find a way to live Summer may be gone ... but she had so much more to give. Her story touches lives each day ... more than I'll ever know I have to share and speak of it ... somehow it helps me grow. Grow to understanding of this senseless act of one who took my precious Summer ... it's never really done! Her presence in my life had meaning ... her passing ... not so much Her death gave my life new purpose ... to reach out and touch. Please hear the message my heart speaks for a voice that is now still Don't drink and drive to be the cause for someone else to feel this chill ...
My granddaughter Summer was killed by a drunk driver on September 26, 2006 ...
She was just 8 years old ...
Her birth gave my life so much joy & meaning ...
Her death brought to my life great pain & new purpose ...
The reason for this blog to is journey in the "grief walk" of the loss of Summer ...
The purpose is to find balance in my own life and lend a helping hand to others who are walking this road or know of someone they love who is walking this road ...
I will be adding a good bit of what I have already written as well as a daily "walk" with the good, bad and sometimes rather ugly days ... I am an open person reguarding this struggle in my life and I don't plan to sugar coat how difficult it can be ...
I also want to express that as difficult as this part of my life is, I have been able to find joy & peace with acceptance and forgivness ... I find my strength through Christ ... I will not even begin to say I am doing this in my own strength ... not only would that be a lie, but impossible!!
I hope that as you join this journey that you will find a measure of healing through shared tears as well as smiles ... that together we can help each other to learn to live a "new" life after death ...
